"Miss Mgda"

What is love?Have you ever been in loved?How does it feel, does it hurt or not?
Here in U.P.(University of the Philippines), I found love and fell in love with a girl. I am afraid that you'll know who she is,so to avoid myself from public humiliation,I'll make a codename for her and the codename is “Miss Mgda”
I started falling in love with her during I was sitting down on my grandfather's chair listening to a song while thinking of her. I did not really know what was the title of that old song but the lyrics that really hit me was this:
I wouldn't be here if I didn't love you.....
I wouldn't be here if I didn't care............
The reason why this words hit me because she was my “Savior”. I did not love her because she's pretty,I love her because she really has a kind heart and full of grace. She has helped me many times, for example,when sir said that we would pay Php50 for the special project and if a student can't pay in the deadline which is on that same day, she/he would have a low score. In those times, I really tried to borrow money from my fellow classmates. No one was able to let me borrow money except “her”,she just came near me and gave me Php50. I was really happy at that time because I was able to pay sir but at those times, I haven't got any feelings for her yet, she was just my friend, I think. She was also the first person on U.P. I first communicated with.
Those were the main reasons why I love her and the other reasons why I love her because she loves to play computer games and she is not a sissy girl.
At those times, I can still go near her and talk to her but now, I can't. She already knows that I have a big crush on her.
It all started when I went to Odchigue asking him who is his crush but he did not answer until I told mine accidentally. Because of this, I made Odchigue to sing his secret. Later on that week, I went to Ariel and asked who's his(I so “ChizimsZ”). He said to me immediately who's his crush was and in return, I told him the crushes of Odchigue and Rieland. Ariel then said to Jen Rose the crush of Odchigue. Rieland then came to Jen and said he already knew who was the crushes of Odchigue even though he doesn't really know,he was just trying to trick Jen Rose and unfortunately,she was triked. Then Rieland said to someone I don not know that Oschigue has a crush on “pot” and “pooot”. That someone told almost everybody about it and because of this, Odchigue also spreaded mine as well.
Now that everybody knows, I can no longer talk to her or even just go near her,which makes me very very sad. There are also times when here friend teases her whenever I'm around. And whenever her friend tease her, I fell glad for a moment but as I have noticed that she, “Miss Mgda”,isn't. This also makes me sad as well because whenever she is sad, it also makes me sad as well.
I guess love for me is really hard to get and it really does hurt especially when the one you love doesn't love you.